Saturday, June 20, 2009

why can't people just be happy with what they have?

I don't understand it. Why not be happy with what you already have? Why the constant search for more and more that only leads you straight to total disappointment? I don't get it. Why do people feel the need to put themselves through emotional and physical pain over and over again? I guess some people just can't be happy. I mean I wish we had more kids, I wish the kiddo had a sibling. For awhile I was ready to deal with the fertility doctor, but he was an ass and now I'm fine with it. We have a small family and maybe one day we'll add to it by adoption or by the birth of another child. IF that day comes, I will welcome it, but if it doesn't, I will not mourn the loss of what could be. Yeah, I'd love for the hubby to be higher ranking, but again, if that day never comes, it's ok. We can manage with what we have right now and still live a pretty complete life. We're not struggling by any means. I'm happy with things just the way they are. Why can't other people see how ridiculously full their own lives are and be happy with it?

Saturday, June 13, 2009

well doesn't that just suck!

We've been waiting on a letter from VB schools gifted committee about the kiddo. This past year he was put on HOLDS status which means give him the gifted work and then some, test him at the end of the year and we'll see what happens. He had the testing done a few weeks ago. I got the results today. They deemed him not gifted. Now, I'm totally fine with that, but some explanation would be nice. I want to know why. I'm sure his teacher and the gifted teacher will be floored when they get the letter on Monday. They are both blown away by the kiddo and how well he's done this year. So now I have to wait until Monday when I can contact the gifted committee person and find out what the dealy is.

This also poses another problem for me. Seeing as I work at the kiddo's school, I've gotten to know some of the teachers. I know which teachers I want him with and which I don't. With him not receiving the gifted status this next year, I no longer know which class he will be in. This puts me in the really awkward position of having to go to our principal and request that he not be put in a specific teacher's class. I don't mind this teacher as a person, but I do not think she would be the best teacher for my son at all and I will not let him be in her class.. period. I really did not want to have to do this, but it has to be done now, since I'm not guaranteed him being in the class I was hoping he'd be in.

I'm very interested in knowing what happened with his testing. I want to know what specifically the problem is. I'm afraid they are going to tell me his writing ability is the problem, because I'm sure any of his written work that was turned in for his portfolio to them was practically illegible. If that was the problem, then I'm appealing the hell out of this because that's part of his "disability" and he should not be denied gifted status because of it.

I hate that i have to wait until Monday. I'm going over to the school Monday morning to talk to his teacher and the gifted resource teacher to hear their thoughts on all this. It sucks not knowing what the reason is. Why they do not just put it in the letter is beyond me.

I don't care about the label either way, I really don't. Gifted or not doesn't matter to me. I think he's the most brilliant amazing kid. He's smart as can be and can rattle off any bit of information about everything they've learned throughout the year and is always eager to learn more. He wants to do research projects over the summer! It just sucks that we will probably be put in a class next year with a lower expectation and that frustrates the hell out of me. I want him to stay in the gifted cluster class because that's where he is thriving.

I also really don't want to have to talk to the principal and tell her that I don't want him in that particular teachers class. It sucks that I have to do that, but she would not be the best teacher for him at all.

We'll see what Monday brings I guess. I'll try not to stress over it between now and then.